cronqvists | Curse of Strahd 2: Electric Boogaloo + Kin Troubles (Reply)

Hiya! My fiance is going to run Curse of Strahd (5e) again, and this time, he's forcing a good-aligned party so that the story doesn't go off the rails like what happened last time lmao. I'm super excited! I'm playing again, but I won't be meta-gaming or anything, and he's changing up a LOT of aspects about the campaign, so it'll be a semi-blind playthrough.

I'm gonna roll a Aasimar Paladin, and hope that I live through the entire thing. My Halfling Bard - Carmilla - managed to survive the entirety of the first CoS campaign, so here's to hoping for twice the luck! I'm sooooo excited to be playing CoS again. It's my literal favorite D&D thing ever. I love Strahd, he's one of my fave antagonists/characters ever.

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So I've been feeling lonely again when it comes to my kins. My Leon and I had another fallout, though this one was caused entirely by me. Mostly, I went off my meds, and my paranoia spiked out of control, and I ended up convincing myself that there were glaring problems when there really weren't any. I did it to myself, though I miss him terribly. I've managed to regain my talking privileges with them, but I'm not allowed to interact with any of their friends or their personal kin discord.

It makes me sad, tbh. I wish we could be close like we were, but that's my fault. It's something that I have to live with, and I'm not sure if I'll ever get back into their good graces fully. I'm blessed to even be able to talk to them after what I caused to happen. Sometimes I think about that a lot, and the guilt eats me up. It's eating me up right now. I just... want to go back. I want to feel like I'm part of a family again. But I guess that's all lost. Maybe one day, things will change.